Back to Work!!!

By phoebe marie -
**This post was transferred from the now defunct "The Long Ease" blog.**

I'm headed back to work today.

Yesterday's follow-up at the doc pretty much told us this is probably nothing serious.  Looked like some growth had happened in the urine culture, likely indicating nothing more than a UTI.  I got another series of pokes and listens and was sent to the pharmacy to pick up a week's worth of Penicillin which I have to take 4x a day.  She hoped that by today, it might bring my fever down and it seems to have done that.  Back down to 99ish this morning, which is pretty normal for me, so I'll take it.  And I'll be calling for or expecting a call with the results of the other tests sometime today.  The pain has settled down to being manageable with just the Tylenol and when I got up this morning, I actually stood up straight without wincing.  So progress is definitely being made!

The hard part is definitely just the difficulty in all of this.  The never knowing what to do.  if I have pelvic pain - where do I go / who do I call?  My Gynecology Oncologist?  My Urology Oncologist?  My Colorectal Doctor?  My Family Doctor?  There's so much going on, so much history, and so many thing that could possibly be causing or affecting what's happening, it's nearly impossible to answer the question.  Everyone reassured me the the Emergency Room was the right call for the severe pain / crazy-high fever combo I had happening on Wednesday, so that's good, I guess.  But I still just get annoyed that I have to live with fears around things like this that are a hundred times more complicated than the fears a typical person would have in the same situation.

Those fears are the exact reason for this blog.  They are the reason for me now seeing a therapist.  And they are the reason why I want to figure out HOW to be involved in "fixing" the system, somehow, for other survivors.

Right now, though, I gotta take a pile of pills and get my ass back to work!  I have a lot of catching up to do and preparations to make for the time I'll be gone starting a week from today when Ryan and I FINALLY take our first real vacation together!!!

Thanks to everyone for your love and concern.  It really helps me to be writing about where I am again, despite the fact that I am no longer actively battling cancer, nor am I feeling super-positive about everything.

I love you guys!
Xxo, Phoebe

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